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This is what keeps me going. I  believe that something good always comes out of a bad situation.

Restrospect

Playing with the Retro Camera application on my android phone. Loving the wistfulness and nostalgia it evokes.

1 Kabuki Doll in the office

2 & 3 Anniversary Cards from my memento box

4 poem written during High School

5 images from my wedding mood board last 2007

Slowly Healing

Today is December 1, and it will only be 30 more days until New Year. This year was very good to me. Like a tonic, all the wounds of 2010 have been slowly healing and hopefully the scars will be gone by the year 2012.

I am not losing hope.

 
Image from Some Kind of Wonderful

Time Out

Created my first Olioboard. I wouldn't mind being tied to the desk all day. Not at all. 

To the Waves

I love the rain. With the fine mist like a curtain of jewels, the night sky glittered. I could sleep all day long when the storm clouds hide the sun.

In the cold, I become lethargic, stoic almost, as I lay in supine covered with a thick blanket.

However, my dream disagrees with me today.

I find myself inside an old cottage with a shabbiness that is comforting. The scent and feel is like being enveloped in a mother’s bosom swelling with love.

Looking out the window, the sea is beckoning me. Enthralled at its aquamarine hue, I went out the door and ran barefoot towards the shore.

I let the warm and silken water romance me until the heat of the sun is no longer friendly on my skin.

Back at the cottage, I had a quick shower, excited at the thought of going to the marina for some seafood.

I sat by the window and let the wind blow dry my hair as I am indulging in a breakfast of brewed coffee and wheat toast smothered with orange marmalade and cream cheese spread.

But the sky turned gray and the cold breeze carried me out of the cottage to be swallowed by the thick fog. 

Waking up dazed; my arms are still flailing trying to get out of the dark abyss.

I got up slowly and opened the fridge. Had nothing but cold milk to calm my rumbling stomach.

Sighing,I sat by the kitchen table and boot up my notebook to search for beach destinations.

Image Credit: i-am-a-mermaid

In the Storm

Hitched a ride on a tow truck one stormy evening. The truck's destination is still fairly far from home, but I had no choice as public transport could not get through the waist high flood in the metro.

An occasional gust of wind would flap the makeshift cover and rain trickled down from the holes. We were stuck in the traffic for almost two hours. Famished and soaking wet, I was quite relieved that there was a store where I was dropped off. Bought some instant noodles, canned goods and crackers. 

Many people were still stranded and I was mulling over whether to wade through the already knee high water. 

“Miss, where are you to?” the man on a motorbike asked. He is offering me a ride.I stared at him blankly not knowing whether to trust him or not. Already cold and desperate to go home, I decided to let go of my apprehensions.

After fifteen minutes, I was dropped off outside our gate, safe and sound.

“Beginning today, treat everyone you meet as if they were going to be dead by midnight. Extend to them all the care, kindness and understanding you can muster, and do it with no thought of any reward. Your life will never be the same again”. – Og Mandino

Finding Myself

Last year was a difficult one for me. Weighing my decisions drained me. I could not sleep at night, I am lost in my thoughts during the day. I always find myself at a dead end.

 

Then, I decided to quit. I quit not because of exhaustion, it is because things are not worth it anymore.And now, I am glad of my decision. I am not where I expected to be, but I am in a much better situation.